Miracles Happen.

I really regret succumbing to my craving for caffeine -
coffee and coke zero -
urgh, insomnia is sticking its pins in my eyes again.

This aside,
Friday was overwhelmingly amazing,
and very unique, I must add.

There were a few dumbfounding moments.
For example,
being called '...evil.'
when I asked a group of people for lunch next week.
I can only laugh now.

Some things we do for others
seem so foreign to them
they can only think about the ugly.

Well,
hurt people hurt people.
I remember how awful I could be to strangers
when I was a mess.

We can't expect the most beautiful things
from people who doesn't know and doesn't have
Perfect Love;
or those who have run out of it.

It is very difficult to love
when you are not loved.

It is tough to love
when you can't even love yourself.

But is it possible to love others
while you're struggling to love yourself?

Some say it's impossible.

I say, it is -
if you rely on the only Person
who can give Perfect Love.

I don't think I've spoken about this before;
but much of my 22 years were spent
grappling with loving and accepting myself.

I definitely don't hate myself -
I just need to learn how to love myself everyday.
It's like taking a daily shower -
when a day is skipped,
it can get really dirty.

I used to wonder
'When on earth will this end?
When can I completely get out of this?
How can I love and care for others,
if I seem to have problems doing that for myself?'

There were times I answered those questions
by withdrawing from people -
believing its dangerous to love
because I don't know how to.

But very soon after,
my pride drives me crazy
and I could only cry out for help
to Abba.

'I can't do this on my own.
I still want to love and care for others -
but I need you to help me.

You said
''It's not by your might nor by your power,
but by
Me.''

I know I have problems,
but since its not going to be me,
please take over my weaknesses -
your strength is greater.'

Many believe that
the day you can give
is the day you have no weaknesses -
but seriously,
that day will never come
unless you're in heaven,
where nobody needs your kindness anymore.

While you are weak,
miracles can happen through you -
when you stop depending on yourself,
and start depending on Another
Who is eternally sufficient for your dependency.

And everytime I surrender
and draw close to
Perfect Love,

Miracles happen.

I am convinced -
there is nobody miracles cannot happen through -

there is no one
He cannot use for great things -

If,
he or she acknowledges
His strength and grace,
and learns to
rely on
Him.

God doesn't need us.
He will bring low
those who exalt themselves above Him.

We need Him.
He takes those who bow down and humble themselves
to high places with Him.

He's not impressed with
man's wisdom -
they're foolishness to Him.

He's not amazed at
what we can do -
what great things can we do?
How great can it get?

But one thing He will not despise -

Brokenness,

the only condition
for miracles.



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